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why can't i be your sunlight?
your Venus.
your moon.
your star.
your everything.

keep me in the deepest of you.
your entirety corrupts me, day to day; time to time.
your voice that gratifies my well-being.
your hands that reaches my soul.
your eyes that sees within me.

be pensive; be mawkish; be my freedom.
in all my confusion and imprisonment
you are my emancipation.
bare the animosity of me.

you're impossible to find....

just for once...

Just for once, i want to be the reason why he cuts his hair because i told him so.
The reason why he eats something just because it's my favorite food.
The reason why he buys a shirt just because i have the same color.
The reason why he falls asleep while holding his phone at night.
The reason why he loves something he used to hate because i love it.
and lastly,
I want to be the reason why he smiles, laughs.
i want to be the because of his every why's.

salamat kreagan..

malungkot ako.

gusto ko lang mag-thank you sa lahat.
sa mga araw na nandyan ka for me.
sa mga tulong tsaka sa words of wisdom.
masaya ako kasi nakilala kita.
nakita ko din kung gano mo kamahal ang pamilya mo. ( i commend you for that. )
nakita ko yung mga sacrifices mo.
sa mga panahon na di ka magsasalita, nag-oopen sakin, ramdam ko yun.
hindi nga siguro ako ang kaylangan mo.
mas maraming beses nga ata akong nasaktan, nagtampo, nagalit, pero iba.

marami akong naishare sayo na di ko nasshare sa iba.
most of the time umiiyak ako kasi pakiramdam ko hindi mo ko kilala..
pasensya ka na kasi sobrang emotional ko.
lahat ng pagkukulang ko, alam kong hindi na kayang masurvive.

all i know is that once in my life, you made me feel special.

you are one of those who understand me.
the look, the smile, i know its worth it.
i have no regrets. (kung meron man yun yung mawala ka.)

thank you for everything.
i have dreams for you.
i told you before, if you're happy being the way you are right now, keep it up.

walk your talk.

i'm happy for you.

lagi lang akong nsa likod mo.
just trying to make ends meet.
I MISS YOU..

God bless you..



*yan yan.. nakakaiyak na......

reunion..

akala ko masaya kapag reunion, hindi pala.
mahilig talaga akong mag-conclude ng mga pwedeng mangyari.
my favorite, pessimist kasi.
i know do sya healthy pero that's all i can think of when it comes to my family.
ang hirap talaga ng di ka belong.
yun lang ang masasabi ko.
may sarili kaming sasakyan. ayun masaya ang byahe.
MASAYA.

nag-jollibee kami.
tapos dumating sila kuya nie, ate ivy at sage.
MASAYA.

di nga lang kami kumpleto kasi di sumama si kuya cy.
sayang talaga.

makikita mo ang difference kapag pinagmasdan mong mabuti.
nakakapanghinayang lang kasi ibang-iba na ang set-up ng pamilya namin.

may mahirap at mayaman.
isa lang sisiguraduhin ko, hindiko gagawin yung mga ginagawa nila.
kahit anong mangyari gagawin ko yung dapat at tama.
di ko hahayaang maging ganon ang pamilya ko.


minsan lang talaga nagtataka ako kasi masyadong marami
Siyang binibigay na di ko na minsan kaya.
wala naman ako sa posisyon para magtanong.
ganon lang talaga.
marami Siyang kinuha pero alam ko naman Siya lang ang nakakaalam kung anong mangyayari at makakabuti sa akin, sa amin.

salamat po...



(bago magreport maglagay muna ng entry.. hehe)

listen to me..

it's nonsense to be sad with what is gone.
it's useless to frown and be in despair if one thing or someone needs to leave you behind.
with or without the right explanation, whether it's the truth or just lies.
just think of those who are always there and never left.
appreciate everything and evryone you have.
grab it before it's too late.
they're the ones who's worth your tears.

my friends...

mga friends kong makukulit..

masaya kasama..

walang dull moments..

isa sila sa mga importanteng tao sa buhay ko..

HAPPY!

after ng masayang defense yan ha..

hehe..

SONNET XVII

I do not love you as if you were salt rose, or topaz,

Or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved.

In secret between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as a plant that never blooms

But carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;

Thanks to your love, a certain solid fragrance,

Risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.

I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;

So i love yu because i know no other way than this:

Where I does not exist, nor you so close that your hand in my chest is my hand,

so close that your eyes close as i fall asleep.

i love this poem..

it's for you Biboy..

kahit di totoo..

what a day...

my day is always like the same as yesterday. but i'm happy. thankful of eveything that i still have. i just wish that i decide on things the right way. para hindi ko pag-sisihan sa huli. thanks to my friends who are so supportive and funny. walang dull moments sa kanila, promise. they are one of the reasons why i go to school.

hehe.. seryoso yan ha.. kahit minsan may mga misunderstandings ayun, misunderstanding pa din naman sya.

kahit ano mangyari love ko cla..