mendacious words

"minsan, madalas may mga bagay na akala natin tama kasi napapasaya tayo. hanggang sa may mangyayaring hindi natin gusto. masakit. nakakabadtrip. pero yun yung magliligtas sayo para maramdaman mo yung tunay na kaligayahan. dala ng mga maling bagay na pinilit mong itama."

I've learned a lot from this. it's from Monica. through this, I've realized that happiness can come in different ways but you should always consider others....

i've made a lot of things that caused others to be miserable. i don't know if i should still believe that "being miserable is your choice."

ang dami kasing pwedeng paniwalaan na halos di na lahat tumutugma sa iba mo pang pinaniniwalaan...

confusing right?

at the end of the day it's still your choice. your life depends on you. not on others happiness, mistakes, pains. you are the one responsible for your decisions, its consequences and gifts..

now, i want to believe on what Monica's own definition of contentment--satisfaction...
makuntento ka sa kung anong nandyan na sayo, maging masaya ka sa mga bagay na yan, di yan ibibigay sayo kung wala lang yan..

everything has its worth.
even a stone can build a house.
a pen can speak the things that you want to say.
a paper can be a witness of history.

people are always important just as the things that i've mentioned.

we don't want others to be suffering out of our own mistakes.

now i really know how to forgive and let my past be it.

past is past..

no one can change it..
but the good thing about our past is that, it can teach us to be better now and in the future....

ang sumpa ng thesis at ang nagtatampong mga prof.

to start the story, hmm.....
di madaling gumawa ng mga dapat gawin ha?
i therefore conclude that college life is sooooooooooooo hard!!!
you need to pass a lot of requirements that is due the following day.
that's what life is, cramming. hehe..
pag walang cramming walang thrill..
as of now nag-eenjoy pa naman ako...

about sa sumpa ng thesis, ayun awa ng Diyos, di pa rin tapos..
sa lahat ng mga dapat gawin, yung thesis na yun ang pinakamatagal. lahat talaga ng effort na pwede mong ibigay dapat mong ibigay..
ilang beses na ding di maganda ang kinalabasan ng thesis na yun!
edit dito edit dun, kung san san kami lumapit para matapos yun.
may mga tanga moments din naman ang group namin...
di yun maiiwasan lalo na't halos lahat sila ay pamilyado na (haha!)
may mga misunderstandings din kung minsan kasi dapat full force kapag magpapasa para maging equal ang distribution ng trabaho..
i want to say sorry din sa mga attitude moments ko.
by that time kasi i'm so confused na akala ko mag-bbreak down na family ko.(i wish)
ayun....

ang mga tamporurot namang professor sa PLM..
akala kasi nila madaling mag-divide ng oras (di naman sa nag-rereklamo nu pero yung totoo lang.)
di lang naman kasi yun yung mga subjects na may requirements..
marami pa! kaya ayun ang hirap mag-comply sa mga gawain...
alam ko, ako meron ding mga di ginawa pero i know that i did my best on doing the things that i need to do...
its not easy to do things lalo na kung sabay sabay..
halos every week kasi may mga dapat ipasa at gawin...

as i've said hindi ako nag-rereklamo, minsan kasi nag-tatampo na din ako kasi parang di nila kami naggets para bang alien kami....

yun lang..

di pa naman tapos ang kalbaryo eh....
marami pa......

ang mahiwagang papel.

this paper includes all my friends' comments.
nababasa nyo ba?

hihi!

Ang Bonggang Bonggang nokbuk ni Angel.

si Angel ang pinaka tahimik na classmate ko.. di sya insensitive katulad ni Hanna although pareho sila ng surname.
oo alam ko walang connect yun, eh wala lang gusto ko lang sabihin.
ito ang nokbuk nyang maganda na gusto kong nenokin kaya lang duh! di pwede.
hehe.. maganda kasi maganda.
ito sya...

There's no place like Eena's house.

sobrang comfortable sa kanila. after ata ng huling araw ng Community Immersion namin di na ko nakapunta sa kanila (ay! nung sagala pala). i forgot. ulit. ulit. hehe.

ang saya kasi nandun sila lahat syempre di maiiwasan ung mga late, pero sana wag gawing way un para makaalis ka agad. asa pa naman ako na hindi "drawing" ung balak namin, although magplano nga kami ng mga gagawin, un drawing talaga kasi wlang budget! asar nu?

nasusuka pa din ako sa movie na un! grabe naiisip ko na naman sya!!!!! FUCK! (ang arti ko na...)
ayun lang naman.. happy ako dahil un...

OBSESSION

a seemingly groundless idea that constantly intrudes into a person's thought.

untitled

You are the Sun
and i am the seed.
You are my only one.
You are my only need.

You nourish me with your light.
You are the kiss that i caught.
You made my downfall right.
But i know you're not just a thought.

You are my patience.
You are my happiness.
You are my obedience
in spite of my bitterness.

my friday...

my friday was the best friday of all the fridays..
hehe..
2:10 natapos ang aming final project at nag-enjoy naman kami..
sobrang exciting to be at intramuros that day..
i was so happy that i've had the chance of being with my other friends..

3:00am nsa bahay na ako.. grabe..
i was sad and i don't know why..
i forgot how my day started.
i forgot about you just for one day..

but still i will never forget how you treated me..

that's ok..

that's life..

what have i done...

i hate this feeling....